Admitting I'm Bad

Ring of Regenera·Feb 23, 2015·4 votes·1,642 views

I have thought about this for a long time, and now I think the time is right to make this post. I started ranked a few weeks ago, seeing as I like to be a team player, I decided being a filler was the best way to alow myself a chance at victory because it allowed even any bad allies to be what they wanted to be and would give me an edge. However, things did not go so well, you see I realized I am bad with any sort of squishy champion, or mid champion, or champions based around damage, or anything that isn't slows and lots of health frankly. In fact, I realized i'm useless at those things in every game, for years I have always been the friend to the important classes, whether it be healing or tanking, I always tried to help rather than do things myself. The result has been loss after loss, and I am nearing giving up on league of legends. This may be an odd post but I a not really here looking for tips but rather I am here to both list why I am bad, explain to others it is ok to be bad, and ask if I should honestly just quit league of legends.

Lets start with a list of my issues shall we

I can farm fine, but if I am adc I have no ability to poke, take advantage of kill lanes, anything that isn't farming and shooting, this results on me leaning on , and being bad at every other adc there is.
I seem to have a moral agenda against meta champions as a whole that I cannot fix, you will never see me pick a flavor of the month, and for whatever reason i can't get over it, so i will never have an advantage over others due to my odd morals.
I can ward great! I can't figure out the best times to do it and my carry dies sometimes because they jump in to the for no reason but I sure buy loads of wards!
Usually because i only play tanks, I end up just being a giant walking wall and my allies just die around me, meaning I didn't block enough things, which means I either need to be closer to allies, or more away and in front I suppose.
Anytime I DO do good with a champion, I assume they must be broken and quit them for months (another moral issue I have that I can't get over, and whenever I try I literally cry and say i'm bad and abuse op champions.)
I don't defend myself from insults, and rather than try to correct people I start to believe them and again start crying because i'm a big baby.
I refuse to play an assassin, which makes my mid lane extra bad, more than any other lane.
Even more than ally insults, if enemies insult me I break down, I think my emotional center must be awful if game insults do this to me.
I came to this came through the idea that I need to play a competitive game because I again feel bad playing single player games because "anyone can win those their easy" and if I play a solo game for a long time I cry and say I am bad" again, which makes me really emotionally invested in winning any game I am in
I can't control objectives for no ones business if I am not .
I refuse to ever play for no good reason at all except for the already explained
I miss skill shots a lot.

So should I just quit? I know it would be better for everyone and I don't want to told others back I would feel bad. Just to give you an idea of how much of a baby I am though, I am crying right now...

39 Comments

hh the thinkerFeb 23, 20154 votes

if you enjoy playing, keep playing. if not, then don't. it's really that simple.

Ring of RegeneraFeb 23, 20152 votes

It isn't that simple! Sure I love playing the game, but I don't want to be a burden, I see many of my allies get very angry and it makes me feel awful. I don't want to ruin peoples day, but I don't want to leave.

redniwediSFeb 23, 20153 votes

Recognizing your weaknesses is the first step to improving. You're on the right path, now you just have to choose whether you'll walk it or not.

Ring of RegeneraFeb 23, 20151 votes

Well, my issue is most of my problems are more emotional, I let strange standards and such hold me back, and I really can't help it. I have issues growing in both league and in real life, because I refuse to do certain things, think that guy who always picks riven only he always picks what teams usually need so he has excuses to protect his mindset with. I don't think I will ever get passed bronze because I never take charge, and I don't think I will ever be able to.

redniwediSFeb 23, 20151 votes

You're recognizing the things you need in order to improve, do you know what the next step is?

Sooner or later you will have to force yourself to do something against your nature. It's always best if you do this on your own terms, rather than someone else's. Try doing something that brings you out of your comfort zone in as comfortable an environment as possible. I assume you've got some people on your friends list, bring them along while you break the rules you've laid out on your list here.

Like I said before it's up to you to decide whether you'll make a change. You clearly want to, and you're the only person who can do it. You know what to do, and it's past time to do it.

Ring of RegeneraMar 2, 20151 votes

I have continued to try, and frankly I am just inferior to others. Just like everything else I have been in in my life I am clearly just not cut out for this game. I am a failure, and a lesser human as always, I am afraid I can't do it. P.s. also all my friends just laughed and said "good we need more tanks."

redniwediSMar 2, 20151 votes

You stop that thinking this instant. No one is good at everything, and that is even more true when you're talking about being naturally good. That said everyone does have something they are good at, it just might take a while to figure out what it is.

Now it's only been a week since you last posted. It took me two years to get to where I consider myself decent, and three years after that I've finally made it to Gold, which is smack dab in the middle of the regular ranks. Improvement isn't something you do once, it's a never ending process that takes some of us quite a bit of time.

Maybe you actually are bad at League, so what? Do you have fun playing? If so just continue having fun and you'll soak up more and more knowledge about the game. It may take some time, but just by playing you will improve, bit by bit. However if you do not actually enjoy playing League I suggest finding a different game.

It is a game after all, you're supposed to have fun when you play.

Ring of RegeneraMar 2, 20151 votes

Why just "have fun" when you could succeed and feel accomplished. Fun is what distracts people so they don't become hard working individuals, it makes you weak, unless you make it constructive. I play games to grow in them, to become stronger, so I must find a true challenge. If I focus on fun, I will never grow, I won't be what I should become, just like in real life. I don't want to slow down like that, it will make me slow and dumb like chris chan or worse. I will not become that way, and right now league is my only way to keep this sanity. Also, I did once grow quickly, I used to be strong and be able to learn things the moment I found them, but I have grown weak. I am becoming my worst nightmare and I have to hurry before it gets worse.

redniwediSMar 2, 20151 votes

Fun is the point of a game. League is a game. If you think you cannot focus on growth and still have fun you are doing something horribly wrong. They are separate but not incompatible.

If your goal is to grow, then grow, but find a way to do it that is enjoyable.

Ring of RegeneraMar 2, 20151 votes

I can't find a way to make it enjoyable, league to me is a means to an end. I need something like this to give me some sort of purpose for now, I am not quite where I could be, I must have success somewhere to give myself a reason to move on, and sure I could just pick up some boring fighting game that relies on top tier picking or play a bland shooter for inferior people who think mountain dew makes you stronger. I play league out of fear, a year of becoming another useless manchild. I am literally this close to killing myself. I won't go out living in someones home like the other useless autistic children, I will grow unlike the rest of my useless kin.

redniwediSMar 2, 20151 votes

Go find someone to talk to, face to face. There are support groups, you can do volunteer work, anything you set your mind to can be done. It may take years, and it may not end up exactly how you pictured it at the start, but it can be done.

The internet is a great place to learn, but if you consider suicide an option you have to speak to someone in reality. There are people waiting to help you, you just have to seek them out. I won't be responding on here anymore, you know what you need to do to reach your goals already. Never stop reaching.

Ring of RegeneraMar 2, 20151 votes

Oh I get it, you think I should get help? People don't get anywhere looking for help, it is just like how the rank system works, you can do it all your own if your good enough, and if you cant, your too weak and too unworthy to deserve it.

redniwediSMar 2, 20151 votes

Damnit I was really planning on not responding.

Humanity, individually, is weak. Other animals our size can toss us around like pillows, we have few reliable senses, and there are only a handful of environments we can survive in without hiding from the elements.

However we have taken control of this planet. We are strong because we stand together. We help each other, and because of this we do great things that we couldn't otherwise. Rome wasn't built by a single man. The Pyramids were not built by a single man. Powered flight was not invented by a single man. The entirety of our scientific knowledge was not compiled by a single man.

As Isaac Newton once said "If I have seen further it is by standing on the shoulders of giants". Everything we have today, including the game we started off discussing, is a collaboration between the workers and thinkers of today, with the thoughts and knowledge of the past. This is what makes humanity strong, it is our one and only strength in this world.

If you think seeking help when you cannot do something yourself is weakness you're clearly in need of help. I've said all I can say, if you still don't understand hopefully someone else can get through to you.

Ring of RegeneraMar 2, 20151 votes

Fine be that way, I will make it through eventually, I have conquered everything before league, and ill do the same with this game, on my terms.

ZmuecatFeb 23, 20151 votes

It really is that simple. I've built up someone who sounds like you to be able to play this game fairly well (not plat level amazingness, but good enough), he plays what he wants, and he's open to learning.

You already said you are horrible, well there's no way to go but up. Find someone to help you. Toss me a friend request if you want, at night if I can't sleep I'm more than happy to help.

Ring of RegeneraFeb 23, 20151 votes

Well okay, I will try, I would prefer maybe some spectated normals first if you helped me in anyway because I can't see myself on ranked for awhile.

dandyangelFeb 23, 20151 votes

That's exactly why I'm waiting till season 6/7 to play ranked (I'm waiting cause I think il do horrible and ranked scares me)

tooitchyFeb 23, 20152 votes

Stop crying, seriously, it's a game, the sooner you learn to get over the issues making you so emotional, the sooner you will overcome the things preventing you from improving your game.
Stop caring what other people say, I know it's hard, I avoided ranked and jungle altogether for a long time, simply because I felt too much pressure towards teammates, either to perform well, or as a jungler to make sure my teammates won lane. If they lost lane, I blamed myself, and usually would get blamed by them for not ganking enough (even though in reality it's simply their fault for losing lane unless enemy jungler was camping them and I didn't help). You cannot put your teammates on a pedestal if you want to improve, you need to accept that you are leaning on them just as much as they are leaning on you, if they fail, it's not your fault, that doesn't mean rage and blame them, or call them out on everything.. in fact I never do these things, and often will accept blame for others simply because I can take it and not let it bother me or my game, and maybe prevent someone else from getting the blame and insults, and being put on tilt, and losing the game because of it. I wasn't always this way, to be clear, I managed to get myself to this place over time, you just have to learn to not care, easier said than done.
Start making your champion picks based on matchups, and nothing else, look into adc synergy with your support, or vice versa. Wait and pick based on the opposing laner, for example if you see Riven, Jax, or Irelia on top lane, counterpick with Darius, counterpicking can really help you to improve at a role because you can be the bully and not focus on not dying through the laning phase constantly.

Most of this is mental, and it's a challenge but you can overcome these things, changing how you pick champions can do a lot to overcome whatever mental blocks you have regarding the champion pool, force yourself to only counterpick for a while, if you're first pick, then offer to pick for somebody and swap, or ban out the champs that counter who you wanna play. Just remember it's a game, it's meant to be fun, and a huge part of getting better is knowing why you're bad, and trying to improve these things.

Just some advice from a bronze player who's had similar issues.

tooitchyFeb 23, 20151 votes

in regards to #3, I'm suggesting you pick strictly on counterpicks to get yourself over the mental block you have in regards to champion select, not like to do this forever, but maybe if you place this limitation of "i am going to counterpick every single game, no matter what", it could force you out of your comfort zone with champs, and help you get comfortable with champs that as of right now, you're unable to play for whatever reason. If you use these champions in hard counter situations, you will help to familiarize yourself with them in winning situations, being the lane bully with someone you aren't good at, will help a lot to get good with that character, you'll want to get that kill when the opponent gets too greedy and tries to farm the wave you're zoning him from, and you'll learn what works and doesn't work for a champ. When I learn a new champion, I play team builder because I feel more likely to be in a favorable lane, either in matchup, or based on skill.

The only way to get over these limitations, is to find ways to FORCE yourself out of your comfort zone, you're unlikely to do it on your own in champion select one day, because when that timer ticks down, you're going to end up falling back on something you're familiar with, try and have strict discipline and find ways to force yourself into new champs. (Maybe only pick champs with certain colors for a day, or only champs with swords, or electricity, stuff like that)

Ring of RegeneraFeb 23, 20151 votes

Response to 1. I don't think I can, it's just... well I am not good at anything, so when I play a game I like to at least feel like I am good at something, and so anything that makes me feel like I earned a win less I refuse because it lowers my feeling of accomplishment. Also losing reminds me I have no talents and am a boring person.

dandyangelFeb 24, 20151 votes

I can relate i got zero talent but what you think of yourself is not what you are so you can't give up hope

tooitchyFeb 27, 20151 votes

Sounds like you got much deeper issues than what you're experiencing from this game....There is an aspect of this game people don't take into account enough, champion select is a huge part of the game itself, games can be won or lost before you even get into the rift, simply by bad picks, so instead of thinking about it like "this win is cheapened because of the champ i picked", consider the fact that you outplayed the person because you picked better, you won the first mental fight.

Ring of RegeneraMar 2, 20151 votes

Deeper issues?! That isn't... worth discussing okay... I understand that is how the game works, but I don't work that way. I am honor bound, its the way I am, I have to earn my victory, but it feels like every single win I have made in any situation... has been a lie, its always been luck, and I know it. I have to earn my win. Whether it be in league, or it be in anything else.

dandyangelFeb 23, 20151 votes

I think you should be strong and do what you think is right and never give up . I'm bad at league but I don't let that hold me back, just be more positive and get some confidence in yourself and u will be fine. But if you like playing this game I say you shouldn't give the game up

Ring of RegeneraFeb 23, 20151 votes

But I am not very strong as a person frankly...

insaiyanbaccaFeb 23, 20151 votes

then become strong! Braum

dandyangelFeb 23, 20151 votes

You must believe in yourself and only then will you achieve something good Braum ps. You should add me I would like to play with you

LostFr0stFeb 23, 20151 votes

Looks like you're on a Gragas binge X3

jokes aside, you are saying you like to play the mid range of champs in terms of power right?

Here is a site that should help you out: http://champion.gg/ This way you can check the mid tier anytime you want :)

-LostFr0st

Russian DollFeb 23, 20151 votes

Just add me, we can talk about it, got almost the same issue.

ABlueQuakerFeb 23, 20151 votes

Denying yourself 1/5th of the game's champion pool really isn't a good thing to do - even based on some distorted self-imposed moral 'rule'. Nothing you do in League apart from acting in a toxic manner is immoral. Champions are there to be played. If you leave the likes of Vi or Katarina available then someone else will pick them and that then becomes YOUR fault. Apart from anything, 2/3rds of the champions listed by you haven't been FotM or even high-priority picks for quite a while now. I'm pretty sure Kha'Zix can barely even clear Season 5 jungle after the most recent changes to junglers.

To be brutally honest, this just sounds like you've mind-gamed yourself into a massively prolonged period of tilting. The best thing you can do right now is pick 2 really strong FotM champions for Top, Mid and Jungle and learn them inside and out. Learn how to play strategically and methodically and implement that into your play. Don't play AD Carry or Support unless you really have to, and if you do make sure that champion is as broken as possible while still being easy to play overall (Sivir, Tristana and Ashe come to mind here) and just play like a b*tch all through lane and just farm then press R and catch the enemy team off guard at dragon or something.

Ring of RegeneraFeb 23, 20151 votes

Why do I want to only play top mid and jungle?

ABlueQuakerFeb 24, 20151 votes

Because they're less team-reliant and they get you playing on a more objective-focused level.

insaiyanbaccaFeb 23, 20151 votes

so i see that you have a problem with mid and you dont want to play assassins give malz and annie a try they are solid mids and arent assassins. just because you do good with a champ does not mean they are broken usually(unless its riven but that talk for another time) it just means that the champ probably fits your style of play best. also dont do ranked for a while people in ranked get way to serious about the game play some normals people there are usually more chill. ok onto other things based on what ive gathered from your post you play passively now i dont really know how to help with this honestly because i have the opposite problem i play way to aggressively push my lane and forget to ward but i would recommend trying to learn some more aggressive jungler/laners darius is a good example of this. now about the whole emotional thing you just need to get over it i know it sounds rude but you really do need to just get over it. now something i enjoy doing when people start going of on me and getting mad at me i like to respond with a simple "lol" or "lel" depending on how i feel it tends to make them even more mad which just adds more to the report they will be recieving from me. i hope some part of this helps you and i dont think you should quit league if you enjoy it

Ring of RegeneraFeb 23, 20151 votes

I dunno I don't see a point in playing if I am not playing ranked frankly, I even saved up for all my runes.

insaiyanbaccaFeb 23, 20151 votes

the way i see it is that ranked is meant to be a bit more competitive and thus the people there seem to get angrier. im not saying to stop ranked all together just play more normals games for a bit get some practice on champs and roles you want to learn and try and improve in normals a bit before playing more ranked

dandyangelFeb 24, 20151 votes

But normals are fun cause there's no pressure lik there is in ranked and u can play wat u want like jax support so there is a point plus runes work well in normals too

JPlayahFeb 23, 20151 votes

Try the following:

Understand that when you do well, it's due to your own skill. Be happy that you did well.
If people insult you repeatedly, press tab and mute them rather than responding. They're not worth your time and it's better for you to be able to focus on the game.
Try Singed and Rammus top lane.

Ring of RegeneraFeb 23, 20151 votes

I don't know if that is a good idea, i usually know it is an insult and try to grab any bit of real constructive help from it that I can to see how I can make it into a positive response.
Singed it alright, but it always feels like stuff goes down bad for me when I do, oh and no i'm not gonna do Rammus top that just sounds.... well.....

Ring of RegeneraMar 2, 20151 votes

Well I have decided one thing, I am not done with this game, I have to take this game down, I must conquer it, that is my path, and if I fail I fail.