I'm on the verge of crying

Now, I'm not the type to cry. Alot of things I can just phase through. Even as a child and tween it wasn't easy to make me shed a few tears. Even when a relative had died, I wouldn't shed any tears, wouldn't feel all that bad, it was just the cycle of life, right?

But recently I've been a bit depressed. Went from being a good student with good grades to a lazy student with mediocre grades. It was mainly because I got hit by depression. The mediocre grades didn't help and I didn't tell anything to my family or friends.

Now I've never actually run into that many toxic players before. I'm one of the lucky ones, I guess. I only know of them from videos and other people posting about them. The few I've run into just say shit like "Noob, go back to bronze" or some bullshit like that which isn't really that offensive and that happens quite rarely too.

But today, I just felt a little down and being the dumbfuck I was, I played some League to cool off. I could've played GW2 and hung out with my guild, could've played some Dark Souls 2 and streamed a little, anything, but I didn't cause I trusted the community too much to be nice to me that day.

I played Rengar jungle. Went to start Golems. I smited it early so my smite is up earlier for Red when I clear it (Red is my third clear then I back and clear otherside). I pinged the Sona to back off about 3 or 4 times but she didn't and proceeded to steal it (She Q'd it and did a little too much damage). She didn't apologize for it but I just told them that I'm behind so I can't gank early. Did wolves and backed, picked up a couple of potions to help clear.

At lvl 4 I decide to gank Riven. She's 1/0 our Voli is 0/1. We fail that gank cause Heca counter ganks cause we had no wards set up there. Riven is now 3/0 so I tell him just to farm cause I won't be able to gank that lane anymore.

I do fine for a little while but I'm very, very behind (Lowest lvl in the entire game and literally only 2 items, Stalkers and long sword). Heca proceeds to rape every lane because they don't have it warded for some reason. I say nothing.

Sona proceeds to say "Does no early ganks mean no ganks at all?" I tell her that I'm way too behind to gank and to let me do my thing.

Well you can see how this goes. Both Caitlyn and Sona harass me the entire game, going so far as to tell me to never play Jungle at all, go back to bronze and to cut off my fingers so I can't play anymore and ruin other people's games.

I mute them after that last statement. Voli is being nice to me and Morg isn't saying anything so that's alright. Then around the very end I unmute them and they're still going on with the insults. Sona starts to follow me around to steal all my buffs and creeps (I'm very underfed, only a tiamat and a few items because when I try to farm, they complain about no ganks and when I gank and it fails BECAUSE I have no farm, they insult me again. It's a brutal cycle).

The game ends and in post-game they continue to insult me. I ask the enemy team to report them for abuse and the Hecarim was nice enough to do it, don't know about the others.

Now, what makes me feel like crying is that people like them, I don't know if they'll even get punished for bullshit like this. We don't have a Tribunal and I've never actually seen someone get anything more than a Chat ban from reports like that. There is no guarantee that they'll be punished for being the worst kinds of people. Tribunal has been down for so fucking long, when will it come back?

Sorry for the long post, I really needed to get this out of my system. I'm still feeling a bit shitty but I'm currently relaxing in GW2, so hopefully that'll remedy this a bit. I don't think I'll be playing alot of League from now on until my depression starts to settle down.