I've been playing League for almost six years. I started near the end of Season 1. I used to love this game, despite it being utterly broken. Maybe it was because I didn't understand game design nearly as well, but I had fun seeing what Riot was going to change in the next patch.
Now, all of my champions are being nerfed and destroyed. I've cried more than ten times in the past week because of this game alone. Reduced to a bag of crap weeping into a pillow.
Cassiopeia just lost all defense to assassins, so I'm forced to take her bot or not at all. My Karma will never be the same since her rework. I don't even feel like I'm useful. Even Quinn's changes made her useless in top and bot.
Now, I'm seeing the same characters in every game, abusing instant targeted disables and undodgeable easy damage to get easy wins, and I'm losing LP because of bluescreens and bugsplats every few games, and I've been told to kill myself so many times, that when I die it's a reflex to have intrusive suicidal thoughts.
Even when my computer works for a full game, I can't affect anything. I've tired of playing support because I feel utterly useless, but even when I choose my old carries that I've had such good times with, I can't get a single kill. The focus on kills in this game has become oppressive with so many simple and high-profile champions being able to steal them without a thought. There's so many specifics I could list but that would be pointless in this post.
But, also, I've learned that you have to be introspective to improve. I've started blaming myself for all the problems in every game, just like my allies do. It's always my fault when something goes wrong. I have to find something to improve upon to make sure it doesn't happen again.
However, when I look for what I did wrong, all I see are the easy instant targeted one-shot abilities of my enemies. I really try not to blame my allies. It's just a dick thing to do, regardless of the fact that they do it to me every moment of every day. So, failing to see how I failed, I see the enemy's skills.
I've made several posts about the bad game design that Riot refuses to change, but I've realized they don't change it for a reason, and that reason is money. The playerbase is already dying out because of how bad all their decisions are, how unfair and unfair the game has become, but Riot won't change the things that are driving people away out of fear of driving MORE people away. They value those players who abuse easy champions with bad design. They would all leave if their trip to Platinum was cancelled because Zed or Xin was nerfed or changed in any way. Riot knows this, and wants them over the people who actually want to have fun and be engaged. But they're still making more fun and engaging champions with fair abilities despite this.
Riot's doing all they can, in their eyes, to start to shift the meta over into skillshots and delayed abilities that have counterplay, but those concepts will ALWAYS be inferior to targeted abilities and hard mobility until Riot fixes what they've done wrong.
But I don't see them doing that.
Every game is a pilgrimage through hell for me. I choose my fun character, I die over and over, unable to even play, and my team sometimes has enough OP champions to overcome the enemy's OP champions. No input from me whether we win or lose.
This game has stopped being fun entirely. There is no place for the solo player except with Zed or Jax or someone really easy and able to 1v5. This game forces you to abuse bad game design and unfair mechanics, and it's not fun to win using that. It's not fun to lose either, of course, but at least i feel like I have integrity for not choosing Fizz every game.
