Just want to vent, let me be.

Hey.

I don't know what I should do. I feel so bad everytime i play a game, even aram. Sometimes i am so depressed that it's so hard to press that "play" button. I just keep telling myself "what's the point? i am just going to start the game and i am going to end up feeding anyways, why even bother?"

I want to just leave league or at least play it less often and instead focus on getting better at something else. All my friends around me are getting internships/jobs (we are college students) and i feel like i am so behind and i am not achieving anything in real life and i am not achieving anything on this game either.

I love league of legends a lot and I so wish i could intern with them someday but I am just so depressed i cant enjoy the game anymore. I used to be bronze when i started and now i just finally hit plat but i feel like i got carried there. I am what you call a one trick pony. my champion pool consist of very very very very very very little champs. Ekko wuk akali kata annie that basically it. And do u notice that they are all easy champs that deal bunch of dmg? yeah because that s me i cant make plays, i dont understand waive pushing i dont understand anything.

I watch streamers and i just can never be like them. I LOVE adc it s such a freaking cool role but I CANNOT play it. I love gosu a lot (i think mainly because i can relate to his depression).

I am just being random right now i know i am so just sad, i want to be able to play all kind of champs, all kind of lanes but i just simply can't. I feel stupid and dumb and i feel like i am wasting my life and my time on a game i will never ever understand or be good at and there is no way out because i am too damn addicted and my real life is too damn fucked up to try and fix rn anything... sigh #depressedAF