This is mostly my family members who have greatly impacted my life.
My bitch of an older sister who tries to find reasons to hate our family despite making the same problems she hates about our parents.
My nearly deranged mother who spent her life doing...what miss fortune does and taking her pain out on the men in her life.
My oldest brother whom quite literally shielded us from all the dangers of the world which in turn couldn't protect himself from.
Despite being the middle child before I was born my 2nd oldest brother was always seen as the intelligent one. Very cold and somewhat distant from our family but still caring enough to never leave us. A general badass and a person who sees violence as the ultimate solution to any thing that can be called a problem. If you come to him with an issue he always has the solution in the form of a double tap.
My oldest sister, taking much from my father's military life and how it affected her growing up. She became extremely strong in ever since of the word, rising up in life never taking good enough as standards she should live by. Alwayspushing harder to the top she's a beacon to our family.
My father, a twisted war vet whom hides is instability in plain sight.
My youngest aunt, she connected me with the spiritual nature of my family's origins despite it be trashed by the rest of my family.
My grand father. While a bit off, his history as a "mystic" has helped me and my aunt in ways that make us believe in his past.
My "little" cousin. Unlike me his brothers never protected him and he nearly fell into the life choices that we're forced upon us until he forged his own path.
My on again off again girlfriend of the past 8 FUCKING YEARS! Easily a loose cannon ready to explode at any time but honestly that's too hard not to love about her. She's the sort of person to help me in away I never knew I wanted but know I don't need.
The other woman who I keep ending up with despite our massive differences. She helps me calm down and ensures that I'm always safe seemingly coming out of nowhere to do so whenever I need it. Typically with Banana bread, my one true weakness that she discovered before I even did.
My Brother-In-Arms to whom I mentor and try to keep out of trouble despite his best efforts to destroy everything. He's a great person but I have to keep a leash on him in fear that something terrible will happen to him. Thought he's moving on in life i am fearful that him doing so might cause him pain in a way that I can't help him with but I'm ready to help him in any way I can.
Despite my normally peaceful nature from what I've been told, I took the worst parts of my mother and father with me when I was born since the we're mostly knocked out of them by the time I came around. My father calls me a The Love Berserker which is why he forced me into sports when in school to help get that kind of stuff out of my mind when I was younger. Rage and a passion for...the obvious took me into some crazy places even before I knew what to really do with those feelings. It lead me to meeting a girl in the fifth grade that I'd later remeet up with in high school and have the most crazy relationship ever. I like to think I have control over myself but everyone else dictates my mind so much and I'm creepily aware of it and so are they. I know when I'm being used and typically don't mind it because I just like helping others in ways that doesn't involve me leaving with blood knuckles but my brother has taught me that's the only way to solve anything to which I have found some truth in through my life.
My aunt helps me meditate to keep a grasp but sadly it doesn't help much compared to a few other women.
oh wow I actually almost forgot someone.
A person to whom I've come to call Grandmaster. He helped me in ways that Thinking of it now almost brings me to tears. I love and respect him in very way (NO HOMO) and see his wife as my sister and his daughter as my own. He has very little flaws and can solve a problem with anything. His respect for all is something You'd think to be impossible and his determination to be the best is near Ash levels of bullshit yet he gets it done.
While I typically rate people as if we all lived in a TV show and who'd be the main character. My Grandmaster is a close 2nd. He wouldn't be the protagonist but he'd be the character that everyone loves o much that they get their own spin off.