Did the right thing, netted in a loss, but I don't feel bad about it at all.
I don't think that I have to explain that this game can be ruthless. We've all had those games where everything is just so frustrating that we leave this game tired, stressed and we didn't gain anything from the experience except for negative emotions.
This is a story about how I decided to be a good guy, which may not have gotten me anywhere, but still I don't feel guilty about what I did at all.
So we're in champ select, being last pick I'm surprised by the fact that rather than getting mid (which is what I would've liked) I got top. I pick Jayce, and the enemy counter picks with Xin Zhao. "This is gonna be a rough lane", I say to myself. Determined to just sit back and farm and rely on ganks, I soon realize that Xin hasn't shown himself in lane. When he finally does, I'm level four and he's level one.
"Stupid dormmates and their use of wireless routers", he says in all chat. I know of this problem well, as I have friends that I have visited that have had to deal with that problem much of the time before their adventures with the cure-all that is the ethernet connection.
So the lane continue, and I kill him, resulting in a significant lead for myself, yet, something feels wrong. The kill didn't FEEL good, instead it felt like I had cheated (in a manner of speaking).
Couple of minutes later and Xin is nowhere to be found, and I'm just enjoying a pleasant farm lane. Finally, he fixes it. At this point, I'm level eleven and he's level four. Naturally, if I were anybody else; suffice to say he would have had a bad time. However, taking pity, I offer a deal. "tell you what", I say sympathetically, "I won't harass you until you reach my level".
My team is in fumes. "Dude don't do that, just do well". They say. Part of me is doubting my own words, but I decide to stay true. The game continues on and it seems that both their mid, jungle, and adc (ironically their scariest of roles) have done exceedingly well and have made my team more and more angry. They begin bickering at each other, until finally they turn their hatred towards me.
"AND JAYCE", says our jinx, indignantly. "IF YOU HAD TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF XIN YOU COULD HAVE HELPED MID WIN THE GAME", this is true, and we are losing. Yet, I don't feel guilty at all. Soon master yi turns on me as well and says "yeah if you had the damages, we would have won, being a good guy was not worth", and finally our zyra chimes in "this game is about taking advantage of their mistakes, they had a xin that couldn't connect, that was our biggest advantage and you threw it away".
At this point, I was becoming fed up. I muted both yi and jinx and then begun to philosophically "wax" with Zyra. In the end, we lost, and yet the enemy team had nothing but praise for me, as well as our mid laner.
After the match, I honor the enemy team, our orianna, and send a simple report to yi and jinx (which I doubt will do much). Then I leave, showing that I had +4 honorable opponents and +1 friendly, as well as a friend request from the enemy sona.
Having doubted my actions before, seeing these honors filled me with a sense of pride. I didn't mind that we had lost the game, instead I felt good that I had done the right thing.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not a nice guy, I'm not always this decent and had this had been a ranked, I would have taken advantage of this more than a hedgefund manager would take advantage of a sinking boat filled with money.
At the same time, let this be a lesson to all of you summoner's out there; new and old. Not everyone is toxic, and not everyone is indecent. While people take this game too seriously, remember that it is just a game and not only do you have the right to play it however you wish, but you also should concentrate on having fun with it rather than getting angry. And who knows? Perhaps a random act of kindness will come back to reward you, even if at first things seem grim.
Until then, have a nice day of league, and may all of your matches go exceedingly well. :)