Has anyone here in GD been truly terrified of getting drunk?
I'm currently sitting here drinking my first full alcoholic drink, and admittedly, it's not bad. However, some people wouldn't even call it that, considering it likely has even less alcohol than a normal beer. It's some kind of fruity.......thing. Called Seagram's Escapes.
That said, it's the only one I'm having tonight.......and likely for quite some time. I'm even slightly amazed I brought myself to drink this, but I figured with how big of a person I am, this little alcohol will do next to nothing.....so why not try it?
My problem is is that I am legitimately, and truly terrified of ever getting drunk. I am someone who is always in control of themselves, and I am not someone who loses their temper easily. It takes alot to get me angry, but when I do.........
You know that one saying? "There are 3 things all wise men should fear: the sea in a storm, a night with no moon, and the anger of a gentle man." This actually applies to me VERY well. I've lost my temper in the past.....I've lost control......and I've hurt loved ones because of it. There was one time I nearly broke my brother's nose from kicking him in the face. Considering how young he was, if I had kicked any harder, not only would I have broken his nose.......I probably could have done alot more damage than just that.
This is why I am so terrified of getting drunk. I don't know what kind of person I'll become when I lose that control.....and I know that there are people out there that become a truly awful person when they do.
Not really sure why I'm sharing this with you all........guess I'm just curious if there is or was anyone out there like me. Someone so terrified of becoming drunk, that it could be considered a minor phobia in some cases.
Anyway.....thanks for reading this if you did. It's meaningful to me.