at this point im defeated

i cant deal man i hate playing this game an it has less to do with the season an more to do with the people playing it but still a lot to do with it

this season is less about making plays to outsmart an out wit your enemies an more about "if i press this button i can one shot half there team an they cant stop me gg i win" its not fun not at all even when i win its just no fucking fun and honestly i dont know why i keep giving league so many chances as i often think "maybe it will get better" when it probably wont

ontop of that being in low ELO such as silver i have to deal with the NONSTOP barrage of "your bad" "your trash" "kill your self your trash" etc etc etc yes i can mute it an i often do but after seeing it so long an losing all the time to shit that i shouldnt be losing to it gets to me it wears me down an it makes me want to quit playing the game because it makes me think that im not good enough even though i AM good enough to reach the goal that i set for my self i know quitting or letting it get to me means they win but after so long it finally gets to me an it wears me down an makes me think im really not good enough at all no matter how much i try or practice