How has mental illness effected your league experience?

Potato Doc·12/3/2017, 4:41:37 AM·4 votes·484 views

Im just a D5 jungle main with more mental illnesses than you can shake a stick at and I was just wondering what it was like for others who suffer from depression, anxiety, ect.

What have been your high points?

How have you made adjustments?

Has playing league actually helped?

Feel free to put anything on here, there's no study aside from personal curiosity so feel free to say anything, even about how stupid I am for missing the majority of smite fights.

12 Comments

Marshbouy12/3/2017, 4:48:02 AM1 votes

I do not have any diagnosed mental illnesses, but I seriously struggle with anger issues.

I would very frequently rage at league and get incredibly angry, but always come back. I think league helped foster some of my anger issues, as they have become less of a problem now that I've largely stopped playing league. I think this game had a seriously negative impact on my life. I think I continued to play because I've heard of a thing called "addiction to anger" and I think a part of me enjoys getting angry and blaming others.

side note:

Not that long ago I stopped playing league and cut the amount of time I played video games in half. I started focusing more on fine arts stuff, reading, and writing. I started to realize that the amount of time I spent playing league was a complete waste (about 2k hours, but still silver 5 trash) and that I was using league/video games as a crutch to ignore emotions, real life relationships, and actually improving myself as a human being.

Since them I have started devoting more time to learning piano, practicing choir, and writing a stories.

Janna F Kennedy12/3/2017, 4:50:46 AM1 votes

League doesn't help, it's just a way to forget about what's going on in your life. Instead of solving a problem it just avoids it... not good.

Trolosaurus12/3/2017, 5:06:34 AM1 votes

I swear to god I hate a Vladimir with some sort of mental disorder a long time ago, because he'd all caps scream and throw a huge tantrum over things such as -Accidentally killing a minion during a gank -Accidentally dealing damage to a jungle monster, because he thought you were going to steal it -Doing literally anything he didn't tell you to.

He was pretty good too, shame he was crazy

Proxy34512/3/2017, 5:09:28 AM1 votes

Take a deep breath and exhale lol

ADC Bard12/3/2017, 5:36:11 AM1 votes

Don't know, the only mental illness I have is that I occasionally watch anime, it doesn't actually affect league.

Bard

Woojae Sung12/3/2017, 6:11:46 AM1 votes

I was misdiagnosed as schizophrenic because someone said I am unable to take care of myself and camera is watching me, but before i learned in computer science course or some television that camera is everywhere in the society and i believed it made it real, I played in university some world of phoenix mud it said critical hit DEVASTING!!! INSTANT HEART SURGERY!!! text based multi user dungeon, and it goes something like mob is critically wounded it's begging for mercy, and further down mob is lost to the world of phoenix, mob is dead. so that instant heart surgery might have been my uncle's death of heart attack. I was in no guild until some guy named justarius said join loner guild i'll help you, and I joined and he killed me in the world of phoenix and too my best two weapons I collected over 30 days, and i got mad and wanted revenge so I took weapon from my other account, and the immortal game master kira said that's illegal and slay eat corpse me, and lost everything i had except for platinums, and so i got mad and deleted my account later game closed down and playing warcraft 3 i liked illidan blind guy who got betrayed, so I got punched by korean kid for saying there was camera because I belived on camera he said he see things like 11:11 or 6:66 time on clock this is democratic rule we gonna vote you out of apartment. but my mom took me home, i bought samurai sword to try to kill farmer's girl because when i was working at restaurant the music seemed to say come on over down to the corner where my brothers and sisters of every different color, and there was farmer's daughter who wanted to invite me to somewhere and people in the restaurant said so she sings song for him and some asian girl said what he doesn't even believe it? and before that i gambled 6000$ in online poker playing blackjack and lost it and some woman said if i see him gambling away i am gonna cut his hand off, because i thought they were talking about me so i felt surprised and breathless, so i thought that farmer's girl was trying to sing for me in radio station because some korean people were saying that father's putting money into radio station, and later i saw on facebook farmer's daughter was sociologist, and other roomate majored in radio station host, and read about social engineering, social engineering to build democracy, but my mom took me home and took all my video games i've been collecting, I felt material loss, I felt really bad, so I bought samurai sword and wanted to go against farmer's daughter but my mom took samurai sword away later after getting punched by korean guy in near my aunt's restaurant, I walked outside naked and female police took me by handcuffs and the doctor said will you go in to the patient unit and i said yes but when i enter the inpatient unit i got scared, and gently pointed finger at the door can i come out and 4 black guys creeped on me and i felt frightened and they said peace my ass 4 black guy grabbing me and putting me on restraint inpatient psychiatry and later taking picture of my ass and after 3 weeks asking me to sign voluntary admission form otherwise you won't get out as fast so i signed voluntary admission form, later i played lots of league of legends as master yi i just liked him while on medication. Because I liked watching anime samurai kenshin. Hiten mitsoryugiryu.

Woojae Sung12/3/2017, 7:15:05 AM1 votes

EDITED after playing league for awhile i saw advertisement broclis riding play carts and saying driving on this? Come to our world and fight the dragon! So I liked it so I played the dungeons and dragons online. The vault of night 3 gave most exp so I liked it in it you go kill marut robot it might have been bots who fights against veil who pretends death. And after playing for 2 year I said I wanted to share account with russian girl because i saw some avatarepc friends share, and gave out password to dungeons and dragons account and i play certain hours and she can play certain hours, but she took out all my platinums and changed the password, and said to her i'll just give the account to you and i played some other game and 6 month later i took account back because i wanted to play again so I contacted turbine and gave my credit card information, and got the account back, and i felt bad after it, and later found out it might have been someone else that took account from her but it was russian disinformation to elect president trump. This all happened while i was taking medication.

Woojae Sung12/3/2017, 3:45:24 PM1 votes

EDITED I tried to find duping method in diablo 2, in it sends data called packet to server server gives packet back, the idea was find loophole where game has weak spots you click on a waypoint and at same time dropping item sends out two packets at same time, and inject with some different packet, the medicine i got from hospital was the injection and injection packet in diablo 2 was the act of stealing. packets, it's metaphore for united parcel service delivery, someone sends money(sent packet) and server(UPS) sends packet and intercept it. Needless to say waypoint dupe was because I went into train station and when I entered 5$ it gave me 5x 5$ i did it about 5 of them and felt bad and stopped. I might have learned for loop in high school, so i liked to repeat things so I did it 5 times. Or robotic competition where you pick up blue letter out block of blue letter parts with word thanks, so the object was to program moving letter parts so that you move once to test out the position of the crane and robot automatically does it for you. I first move the crane into position and put it down then the program repeats what i it ordered to do, spelling out thanks so people think i give these commands to robot so people think i am in charge of bots.

Woojae Sung12/3/2017, 5:38:54 PM1 votes

I just realized everything i see on this computer is false because I went to university and studied computer graphics, the youtube movies are just pixelated bits graphics making me believe that is real.

Woojae Sung12/3/2017, 5:51:18 PM1 votes

Everything I see in this computer is false because of pixelated graphics.

Angry Neckbeard1/23/2018, 6:38:47 AM1 votes

I'm gonna necro this just to say that one's attitude/mentality in league is a reflection of a lot of life-skills (or lack thereof) and can help you improve on those things. for example: patience, awareness of emotions, mental fortitude, frustration, management of emotions, tolerance, positivity, mental attitude. These are things that can be improved upon by checking in with yourself and having the courage to stand up to your own feelings during a match. These are real feelings and they are not lessened by the fact that it is "just a game".

Every match is a way to practice these skills and is a way that you can pull yourself up by your own bootstraps to become an even better person than the shit-tier rager you were when you started playing (speaking for myself, and this isn't to say I don't still get frustrated or tilt). However, I have noticed that making the conscious decision to not be negative or flame, or even to be the pillar of mental fortitude and positive encouragement that your team of ragers NEEDS can make the difference between winning and losing a game.

If you're positive it helps to foster a greater sense of teamwork and alliance between your teammates. If you're negative it breaks any alliance you and your teammates may have and breeds spite, petty revenge and other actions/attitudes which lead to the downfall of a match.

Also, someone who isn't me has 4 perma'd accounts. I have heard of individuals with many many more perma'd accounts than the individual I'm referencing. I think that those people who have 20+ banned accounts and who are ~diamond are good enough at the game to win a majority of low-elo games to get to diamond, but then their mentahl screws them over and they become hard stuck. They limit their own improvement by being negative.

tl;dr league can help you overcome yourself and be a better person, but it's just as hard as any other method, and requires the courage to face your own negative emotions.