LET ME MAKE THIS CLEAR

i have not been punished or banned in game. i have however been banned from the EUW boards. Now i'm gona be honest.

i publicly apologized several times for my words used. Now people always think "you got banned" 90% of the time i am friendly even in game.

Everytime i make a controversial post to piece together what i am experiencing i am, bombarded. People assume i am salty.. this is not true. i am direct and sometimes english does not work.

moderators will assume it's due to my boards ban. honestly Shiwah.. i have moved on as it's pointless to even use the boards.

i never see anything here but hate, thread after thread of angry people and it makes me sad,

now there is another reason for my attitude. have you ever played a game with 1 arm, ever needed to play with a broken arm?

ever looked up saw the sky with god in it, and you will never speak to him as he does not know your name,

i feel after a good +- 8 years that riot would have done me this one damn favours in the bliss that is hell tearing my body apart, i'm not doing well.. 2 years.. 4 operations 2 were completely botched,

in 5 months i will be in hospital again, anything could happen, they could destroy my right arm indefinitely,

you know what it's like being the nice guy your whole life? it sucks, you get tired of it.

Because people will always abuse that.

i'm not mad, i'm not salty, i'm depressed, and riot could end my sadness, but instead chose to destroy the last faith i had.

Honestly no one cares about anyone here really. It's like getting stood up a prom night or finding the elixir of life was actually cyanide.

i don't expect anyone to feel pity or care, because no one does, the crows will peck my corpse till nothing remains.