Trying to understand my loss streak.

Was in gold 1 staring at the possibility of plat 5 and after like almost 30-40 losses and maybe 5-6 wins. I'm trying to understand where something went wrong.

Ya some games I lost myself. But most others I had lanes dieing like 3 minutes in and then getting slammed and steam rolling the rest of the way whether i tried to intervene or not.

I guess I'm confused about alot. When did my elo shoot so high that apparently I have to be the one to attempt to carry the team? Why has my mmr not stabilized at a proper place when I won like 40 some odd games to maybe 15 losses before and now it's like 45-53. Like what the hell.

Am I the only one that has gone on a terrible losing streak here lately?

Hell I don't know what else this post is about other than a massive vent because holy shit this is so annoying to bust my ass every game only to have it come to not more than 75% of the time. Try warding. Try playing passive. I mean nothing is working. And it's super flippin frustrating. Like what the hell.