Congratulations... :(

Well since you can see these typed words, thank you for seeing this.

However, I'm here to just get my feelings out there.

Over the course of 5 years almost, I've met tons of people... 
I made lots of friends...

Whats to congratulate is not this, its this:
I am completely and utterly disappointed in all of whom i met. Mainly for the fact that I hoped for more of them, for them to show up..
EVERY
SINGLE
DAY

They say "Oh of course I'll be there forever long as you are! :) " later on that month they are MIA and haven't even bothered to talk to me, didn't even bother to toss a message my way giving updates.

I'm also frustrated that the ones that do stay around longer then the others, they don't even have conversations with me, they don't even come sometimes when I invite, I have to beg them to come. When they do come the converstations are all there but when looked at, its just me typing alot. (With little to no response at all, its to the point my boyfriend puts in a response just to stop me from feeling depressed that no one even tries to talk with me. He does this even when he's right next to me irl....)

I'm seriously sadden from the fact that all my old friends i made in the first 2-3 years are now gone, or they just get on 1-4 times a month and expect me to play 1-2 games only for them to get offline for another 4 weeks at most. They are also quiting after 1 bad game, and its always the same response.. "Oh I have *insert excuse here* so bye" and sometimes they even tell me "See you tomorrow!" (then they don't show up that day they said they would all day and night long....) Whats worse is they even check to see if i'm online tomorrow, and I ALWAYS AM ONLINE EVERY FUCKING DAY OF THE WEEK... I tell them I'm online every day and they can count on it. Yet once the day comes all I can hope to count on is me understanding I can't rely on their words or them.

Then there are the actual players that came to me from these Boards.. YES I reached out to these boards 3-4 times in the last month or so, only to get spamed with friend requests.

I was so happy! :3
Then after all the time that leads up to now,
They all are gone except for 3 out of the 40+. and the ones that are currently still with me don't even bother gaming with me unless its 1-2 times that day.
all the ones that no longer exist in my friends list did 1 or more of the following
1. Trolled, flamed, and forced lessons of improvement on me.
2. Just stopped getting online
3. Had other ppl they enjoyed or knew for longer

These people, these same people told me "I'll be your friend! And we can game every day, we can talk and chill out too!!" all of it LIES


One day, one day soon.. I want 3 people. 
These 3 would stick around forever.
These 3 would game with me and my boyfriend forever, whilst being on league only.
These 3 would play for fun! 
These 3 would keep on talking to both of us, and sometimes even get so into the talking/typing so much hours could go by.
These 3 would train and practice with us consistently.

And yet, these 3 don't exist... They will never exist and I won't be expecting that to change for the rest of my life.



I'm done.
I'm through with trying to get ppl to stay with league and for them to play with me constantly.
No one cares enough, no one plays enough, and NO ONE will be my friend.

*[sg-soraka]* 
Sincerely CinnaBon Kittenz.

PS Congratulations Summoners, you've killed my faith in you all. </3