Letting Go

I'm not quite sure where else to put this, so I'd just like to jot down my thoughts in hopes that even one person reads it. If you disagree with any of my opinions in here, that's understandable. I'd just like to put down my experiences and thoughts on the game in writing.

League of Legends has had a very strange timeline for me, and I'd be lying if I said it wasn't rocky. That said though, even though I'd get tilted sometimes, I would say that I loved League of Legends. I loved being able to queue up as my favorite champion, and even bring some friends along to have fun with. In fact, they game meant so much to me that Summoner's Rift was almost like a second home to me. I knew it like the back of my hand, and it was sort of an escape from real life for me. I didn't have to worry about being good enough in real life, when I could focus on playing a champion I was good at and dominating the competition. That was in season 4, and as of the time I'm writing this I haven't played in about a month. Whenever I look at Summoner's Rift nowadays, it seems almost completely alien to me. It's as if it's not even the same game that I played 4 years ago. Though I have over two thousand hours of total in-game time and have consistently played for approximately four years now, I don't get that sense of joy I used to get when playing this game. I deep down love this game because of what it represents. League of Legends to me represents a perfect blend of fun and competition, where you can try out new skills on unfamiliar champions, or really test your limits on what you're best at. But, I feel as though every time I log on nowadays I care less and less about any changes that are coming.. in fact I sometimes dread them. As someone who's been playing the game for a long period of time, I can't keep up with the constant updates and changes even though I really would love to. A lot of the changes (especially the small ones) seem unnecessary and just more things other people will know that I won't. I don't feel like I'm the king of my champion or my role anymore. And, as much as the memories of skirmishing with my friends on the rift as the years went by mean to me, I have to accept that it's not the League of Legends it once was. So, with this, I've realized that while I may no longer love what League of Legends is, I'll always love what it was, and what it will always represent. Thanks for reading :)