I hate playing this game but I can't walk away. I'm miserable, what do I do?

Venomrequiem·Oct 15, 2019·1 votes·1,269 views

I've spent 10 years and almost $4k playing this game. For the first six years it was amazing. Now I'm 34, my friends have moved on, my coworkers have moved on, and I hate the game. I was in an accident 4 years ago that damaged the ligaments in my left hand and wrist killing what APM I still had at 30. Self-casting Kayle's ult for instance is impossible. I've been getting progressively worse just trying to reach gold for the fucking skin, and Riot's constant champion reworks towards twitch reflexes doesn't make it any easier. Every match is just me getting shit on by my team, telling me I'm Inting. It's beginning to affect my marriage how miserable this game makes me. Just got demoted from Silver 1 for the fifth time and I just want to die. I should just say fuck it, but I have so much time and money invested into this game I don't know what to do. I really want to talk to some one at Riot, but support always points you to suicide hotline who can't help. They can't conceptualize the plight. Anyone have any advice?

8 Comments

JamareeOct 15, 20192 votes

Uninstall, uninstall, leave, don't redownload, literally play anything else. Quit the game cold turkey, there are better both free and paid option s of games to actually enjoy then forcing yourself to play one causing you stress.

VenomrequiemOct 15, 20191 votes

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Uninstall, uninstall, leave, don't redownload, literally play anything else. Quit the game cold turkey, there are better both free and paid option s of games to actually enjoy then forcing yourself to play one causing you stress.

But 4 thousand fucking dollars on fucking skins! I get its a life lesson not to buy non-existent shit, but I don't want to just walk away from that.

JamareeOct 15, 20192 votes

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But 4 thousand fucking dollars on fucking skins! I get its a life lesson not to buy non-existent shit, but I don't want to just walk away from that.

Not like it is going anywhere and if you enjoyed it, it wasn't a waste.

VenomrequiemOct 15, 20191 votes

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Not like it is going anywhere and if you enjoyed it, it wasn't a waste.

I guess, every year I get so close to closing Gold and getting the skin. I just want the fucking skin.

JamareeOct 15, 20192 votes

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I guess, every year I get so close to closing Gold and getting the skin. I just want the fucking skin.

Again, who cares, it is a skin likely for a champion you don't even play. A skin isn't worth your mental health.

Umbra ZOct 15, 20192 votes

Leave, plain and simple, its hard but you gotta do it.

RawOct 15, 20192 votes

Meanwhile I'm trying my best to get back into this game but I've lost my will to click that "Play" button.

Zac x MeOct 15, 20192 votes

start drawing furry stuff and take commissions and then learn how to do basic programming and create a furry dating sim while having a patreon for it and boom, you'll have ten times the money you've spent on your account back