I can't stop inting

Hello there,

I've always been the kind of player who liked to try exotic builds and random agressive moves and calls, always resulting in a high amount of death, as you can see in my op.gg. Yet, it still was somewhat successful. But lately it's been worse than ever. I literally can't play a single game without inting my heart out. Not on purpose, but I feel like all my coinflip moves end on the wrong side for me, I can't even dodge a single skillshot anymore, I feel like my reflexes are those of a drunk person, but I swear I'm perfectly sober. I try to make up for my bad plays by making some calls, but of course, due to my poor performances, my mates give little credit to whatever I can say. And yeah... I'm kinda lost. I don't know what's happening. I'm playing since S1, turned OTP Janna since S3, and yet I feel like I'm becoming worse and worse instead of improving. I have maybe 2 small ideas, which could explain a bit why it's happening...

1. I have more and more issues in my personnal life, so I always feel exhausted and depressed, so it probably impacts my IG performances
2. I literally HATE the meta shifts, all new champs / reworks having a gazillion abilities like dashes, invisibility, one shot buttons, tons of cc etc and everytime I hear about new champ, my first thought after seeing his abilities is always "omg again a cancer stupid op shit, why I can only ban 1 champ per game, I'd need 15 of them". My first main was (pre rework)Soraka, my second was Sona, and I gave up both of them because they became 100% unplayable imho. I'm still clinging to Janna, thinking "yeah her Q can cancel 1 dash, her ult can cancel another one... oh wait I could succesfully deny Akali ult, but now I have nothing left to prevent Pyke Qiyana etc from oneshotting me... fml".

So of course, I can not change easily my personnal situation. And I definitelly can't change at all Riot decision making on new champs and meta.

That's why I ask for your help and tips about a way to help me becoming less trash for upcoming season. I don't want to give up my exotic builds and playstyle (my peak elo was plat I while tryharding, but it felt more frustrating than anything else, so I prefer being hardstuck gold and having fun with my exotic stuff (and no don't tell me "play normal then" because in normal games I have literally no reason to want to win the game, so it'd make me play even more poorly and wouldn't be enjoyable at all)) but I want some ideas about what you guys do to untilt yourselves when the game is going like shit and when you start chaining bad move after another, both during the game or between games , because of course I have no fun in getting one shot everytime and losing game alone because I'm not able to dodge a single Pyke hook

Any constructive comment is welcome.

Thanks in advance