Permanetly banned
Just got banned from this account for being toxic. ya.. i spammed ff vote because we had a lissandra jungler and a blitz adc getting rekt. Being the only one fed and not being able to carry i guess is my fault. I am not sure what it is but no matter how many coaching vids i watch or how much i improve my own gameplay/mistakes the anger i get from this game does not go away. If I get outplayed in lane i actually do not get mad at all. I like learning and getting better. I guess its everything else that comes with this game that for some reason makes me lose my mind. Afks mid game when we are winning, people not FF when im 20/0 and everyone else is 0/10 (unwinnable). ALSO Once i get on tilt. It lasts for weeks even if i take a week off. I can feel the differance like if i dont play for a month and in a good mood. I hear "FIRST BLOOD" or ENEMY HAS BEEN SLAIN" it wont even phase me ill just stomp lane ( i main panth) and then ult bot and carry. BUT when im tilted and i hear this i will be like ok here we go again. Then the whole game i feel like i have to super carry i donno all games start to feel unwinnable.
ALSO PLEASE READ THIS!!!!
I made a new account and was playing normal games. I PLayed very stress free and was around 60 wins/60 losses. Although it was only normals i could tell iwas playing with silver/gold players just by the gameplay. And ill have to say i was a lot less stressed out. I mean same thing i win lane but when i ult bot and give them a double kill they will snowball. The plays ive been making or been a part of has made the game like 700x more enjoyable then me pinging everyone to do things they should already know. For example if we grab first inhib and i immediatly start backing in bronze everyone will stay and ill being pinging my ass off. But in these games they all start backing/go for dragon its AMAZING TO SEE..
Was thinking about starting ranked on my new account but the tilt has spread. Like i was playing on both accounts and had 0 issues. But after i got banned i had a sick urge to keep playing so hopped on my new account and was getting tilted in norms... I mean to the point where im just a fuckn asshole. I would love to feel the success of climbing but at this point i dont feel like i can stay calm long enough to do it