My Experience with League of Legends and the Evolution of Behavior in Games.

Welcome to this Thread.

How I Started: I started playing League of Legends sometime During Season 2; my best friend kept asking me to play "LoL" and I thought it was a horrible idea at the time... as I was playing other games, along with trying to maintain a job. I guess after having him ask me so many times, I would check out this "new game" of his, that him and his friends had been playing since launch. I played a couple of games, and at first the idea of starting every game at level 1 and working back up through the ranks, with only minor boosts through Runes and Masteries was frustrating-- considering my experience with my usual PvP systems in MMO's. Eventually I warmed up to this game, and I have been playing since that point.

What I noticed about my behavior in games Season 2-3: When I first started playing League, I ended up angry and violent during and at the end of games, due to my own mistakes and the mistakes of others. I felt that I deserved to be in a higher rank than "Bronze" -- I insulted people, I was a really big jerk-- and I wish I could take back some of the things I said to some players... as I went too far with some of the things I said-- and this occurred in 80% or more of my games. I was bullying other players-- blind to the fact that these players are people... people with feelings, families and friends. I decided after I was reported and muted for [30 games] that I would take a break for awhile.. and try to be a better person.

What I noticed about my behavior in games Season 4-6: It has been a couple of years since I was banned, I improved on my anger, I learned to accept that I'm not a good League of Legends player, I accept that-- but that doesn't mean I cannot play the game because I'm bad. So with this knowledge I took to playing primarily custom games, trying to understand all of the champions I owned (which sadly, I owned almost ALL of them, despite how little I actually played compared to my friends. [I invested about $700.00 CND since I started playing back in Season 2 by this point and whether or not I was willing to admit to others I was a bad player, I had accepted subconsciously.

What I noticed about my behavior in games Season NOW: I believe that I have greatly improved how I treat other players. I also believe I have become a better player. I have toned down my insults to more acceptable levels; e.g "I hope you step on a lego." It's clearly expressing that I'm frustrated, it lets my team and the enemy team know that I'm agitated, but at the end of the day, I know this words did not cause anyone any form of harm. I still do slip up sometimes, and say things I regret-- but I am only human and eventually we burst from the pressure that is weighing down on us...

~Sigh... let's move on..

I would like advice from other players on how I can improve as a player, and different methods of remaining calm during a game. I no longer want to be hurtful towards others, and I no longer want to be stuck feeling like I'm a bad player. I would like to aim to reach Gold V at least.

There I said it, I'm a bad player, and I want advice on how I can improve!