climbing is very hard
Ok so i realize that i just cant climb in any elo. Its just fucking impossible to not tilt. Like Im a panth main and i have made 20 accounts. What happens is i go throught trials winning like 6/10. Usually get placed in silver 3. MY issue is I cant climb more then one tier no matter what division im in. For example when im in silver 3 I win 4 in a row and get promoted. I actually do very well in these 4 like smashing lane, not feeding, shutting down other teams carry, making smart roams/macros for the most part carrying. So at this point i feel like "hey i belong in silver cool" But then this vicious cycle begins. What happens is ill get autofilled for first 2 games in silver 2 after being promoted and lose both of those. Tilt level- 1 Then maybe I win one but the next 2 games i get raging bot lanes that dc and we lose. Thats 3/4 games i lost and being completely honest with myself in those games i felt I had 0 control of my fate. Then the fear of getting demoted kicks in and i really actually start to play poorly at this point. Ill actually get to a low where taking breaks, weeks off doesnt help because i still rememember the past games. Btw i have watched tons of coaching vids and pro panth players like keegun to help myself improve. I also play other champions to learn matchups. I do the work to get better thats what im making this post because the game never is easy for me because im always tilted. Although I have beaten gold players in ranked..( checked players profile after once and it said G5 while i was in silver 3) I dont understand this So i win 7 in a row and im still in silver 3 but getting placed with gold players? Or if i lose 7 in a row and then placed with bronze players? There is something very strange going on here that seems like its designed to make people fail. Like i just want to lose a game feeling like i fucked up and have things to work on. I really would actually love to only lose games because i get out farmed, f blooded, make bad macro decision or even a bad ult late game because then i would feel outplayed. But seems like the more games you lose in row the more you lose cuz of not those things. You lose because you called your jungler a shiteatingcocksucker who you pinged 3x to back off chasing enemy into unwarded jungle and he dc after that lol. ALso i find this odd when im in a great mood i can smash on anyone mid lane as panth. I really dont say anything in chat but gj and everything seems to go well. No one feeds too hard and everyone seems very respectful towards one another. When im in a bad mood everything seems to go wrong like my bot lane will just lose f blood and f tower in under 10 min for 6 games straight.
So am i terrible at this game or am i just terrible at dealing with the bull shit that comes with the game? It sucks cuz no matter how much i improve the game doesnt get any easier. I mean ya i die a lot less and my kda is a lot better, but dealing with people and carrying is a differant story. If i go top i feel like both teams are just slaughtering eachother in the favor of enemy team while im stuck top. So i push my lane out and ult bot lane. Cool i get 2 kills and a tower but enemy top laner has just cought up in farm and took top tower. Thats why i like playing mid panth cuz it actually isnt very stressful and i feel i have much more control of my fate. But when i dont get mid i wanna kms.
Point is guys if im in B5 i wont make it to b3 but toggle between b5-b4 for years. Like i win 5 in a row and have like 50 lp. Lose 1 game lose 25 lp ? Thats elo hell my friends it does exist. If im in silver 3 ill toggle between S2-S3 for weeks before i go on full tilt until im in bronze again. And once if tilted this hard the game isnt even worht playign cuz of how bad the matches are i just make a new account.