Sometimes... I don't feel like how well/bad I play affects games at all.

Sometimes, in games, i go 8-3-10 and i lose. Sometimes, I go 3-8-3 and win. Maybe it's a lack of understanding of how the game works. Maybe, I simply don't kniw how to carry a game. I feel like I'm stuck in these really long lull periods. People always say just improve. I feel like I don't know how. It feels, because of how different every game is, that I never should do the same thing, but then higher ranked players say "consistency is key." I used to play with some higher ranked players. They never seemed to tell me what to do but only tell me everything I do is wrong. I'm only trying to emulate what they are doing. I lack the knowledge to improve. It's like being handed a pen and paper and being told learn to write, but then being given no instruction. I have been playing this game off and on since season 3 and i still feel like I'm in the same spot.

In any case... The whole point of this, I guess, is that everyone makes it out to be easier than ot actually is. That's why there is a smaller number of people that make it to gold+ than the masses that sit at the bottom of the food chain (just an analogy).

That being said...

I do think having a friend that knows what they are doing does help a TON. I had a friend that seems to be no longer playing actually molded me into his perfect support, and because of it... We achieved greatness. More than what was to be expected of me.

This I guess really feels like a pointless rant. I just would like to tell higher tier players that it's not as easy as it seems even though some people can make it happen so easily. How this turn of events for them happens is beyond me. For now... I'll just keep practicing.