What's on my mind about ranked right now.
Hey there everyone! I want to come off as positive as possible, and give the impression that I am NOT toxic. I know that Bronze-Silver players say things like "I deserve Diamond!" and that "I am always paired with dumbass teammates I deserve gold because they're bad and I'm good!" But I would simply like to state what I feel is going on for me right now.
So thing were going good, like really good. I was in my silver 3 promos with 1 win, nothing could go wrong! But then I got a feeder (this isn't some VERY VERY bad player, this is talking 1/16 run into enemies feeding) And awful upon awful games happened, and now i'm sitting here with 25 LP in silver 4, scared to press the "Join Que" button in ranked. What am I fearing exactly?
It's the evident outcome that we are probably losing. My teammates simply don't really know how to play safe. (Is that a nice way of saying they're bad) Now I am pretty awful, but if I'm ahead I see it having no use as my teams usually are 1/4, 0/4 or having a losing losing lane. I don't want to pin the blame on them. If I was going 20/0 every game these past (10?) games that led me from nearly silver 3 to a -75 LP loss, I would probably have the rights to complain, but I'm not.
I've looked up things and everyone says that I just need to "suck it up and carry" and that "you would be higher if you were hard carrying for your team" but the problem with that is that I'm not GOOD enough to carry. If I am in a game without anyone that knows full well what they are doing (AKA my near-gold5-friend,) then I can't carry on my own. I only have 2 years of experience on my back, and have had very very bad hardships with improving (since I don't know how, to put it simply). But everyone says you "need to carry" but I find that simply NOT possible.
So what do I do? Do I belong low bronze since only then I could probably end up winning a game for my team? Or do I slowly slip in LP losing games since combined efforts from my teams can't win a game. Do I need to grind out 100 normal games on one champion, master them in and out, and then carry myself one elo, at MOST, before having this same situation? Am I just that god awful? What do I do? I don't want to be afraid to go into a Solo Que Rank game. But what does it take if you can't rely on teammates?
