I miss Banner of Command.

I really miss Banner of Command. It was my most favorite item in the game and was really fun as an item to play around with. I struggle solo-lane with pushing lane and this item filled all of my gaps. I was doing extremely well playing lulu top lane right before the item was taken out of the game and the whole season was ruined for me. I had finally found my footing with this item in the top lane and I mourn this item. Every time I launch league of legends I mourn this item. I understand why it could've been abused but instead of fixing it it gets removed? it's heartbreaking. I cannot have fun in league anymore without this item. After Banner of Command was removed I lost all joy. Riot, I am so sorry but I cannot play until it comes back. Banner of Command was the air I breathed and the hand that fed me.