please... help
the amount of frustration and anger i am feeling cannot be summed up in words. over the past month i have not had a single good winning spree or elo climbing spree. i dropped from silver 1 100lp to silver 4 with 37 lp in the month. i just can't win a game anymore. its like i'm incapable. so very uncapable fsjdkl;cm;jasdmnjlkcadsfnijpomwevwnijroerewicjvomp,recmwjpio i want to bash my skill in so badly. honestly i think i have stage 8 depression. i just want to win. a. ranked. game. either i do well and we throw the game full heartily giving baron to the enemy team, or i will do bad in lane because my champions were banned/picked such as a vayne top match i had against a jax last game when i wanted to go voli but the guy above me had picked it so... i guess that game was my fault. doesn't make it any less frustrating that i went 1/10 and the 0/7 wukong had destroyed my dreams of winning a game when he 1v1d me probably tilting himself. i've taken breaks from these games, trust me i have. i tried breaks. i tried just playing normals for a bit. but THIS is long term. there was this one game where i asked for a gank as ryze as we would get a nice kill off a zed but i guess our jungle hecarim didn't read the whole message, [message being: zeds getting a little fed, i need a gank], and decided to respond .2 seconds later with "don't blame me because you're 2/0 feeder %%%got". and at that point zed had went 18/7. he just dived me whenever i sat next to tower waiting for minions. i even tried just letting the tower die but they wouldn't let me go man. the enemy jungler shyvana would ulti from my own second tower and hit me into zed where they would blow me up. i built full armor which rendered me useless and still didn't help me much. i had no idea what to do at that point. my team reported me for intentional feeding and i proceeded to fetus position. it used to be so good. my kda... everything man it was all good. even when i do have good kdas i usually have a team that throws the game and i am unable to defend towers against a team with baron or 1v5 + tower. i dont know what to do. i've watched so many pro players talk about the game including trick2g, gbay99, and pantsaredragon. and i watched how to play certain roles from redmercy, trick2g, shaclone, and gbay99. i know how to play the game. i have decent map awareness and i use whatever power i have not to feed and or to snowball. but even when i snowball it seems something always happens the enemy team steals baron from my team who does baron when they're all up or without killing their jungler first. or maybe we have a teammate that gives up midgame because we had a bad teamfight because of positioning or because they had a bad laning phase [which i can understand, but i do not give up from that]. i used to duo with my friend but i've been bringing him down too lately and its been so bad that hes had a 6 loss streak and i've tilted him along with me. trust me when i say this that i am no noob that clicks 1 click per second and doesn't know how to look at my map or how to trade or how to farm, if you could watch my games and please give me tips or something that im doing wrong that i'm not seeing please help me. its so frustrating its like i can't win a game. please someone help me.