Massive morale drop and demotivation.

(Account in question is NewYetOldName)

I've realized once again, I haven't changed at all. A 32% winrate on normals and a 25% winrate on . I've even bothered to rush double lethality....

Am I a complete r-tard that is meant to go die from cancer? A person who has to focus on small things but always lose his games to get ripped on? Or do I just need so much damn help?

Cause honestly, I'm realizing that my Mobalytics stats are horrible in my recent 5 game loss streak. And even after changing up some things I still lose.

A player in one of my games outright said to me "Trash Wu" and because "Americans are bad" (he had a Chinese username btw and to back that up his mechanics were good). (BTW, I turned on all-chat since I was losing the game so hard that he was running down my base with his team, so there was no more room to move around to do anything anymore.)

Well, ironically, I'm Chinese American. So does that mean I'm just polished turd that's still turd? Then great...

That 5 game loss streak is by far one of the most demotivating things I've ever had after around 5 seasons of playing this game. I thought bit by bit I would start to have a grasp on things, ONLY to just drop back down and have crap like that pop up saying that my efforts mean nothing.

And just to not lose anymore, I should've already been a "god"; and the irony is that all the "gods" supposedly used to be losers. What a damn lose lose situation. To get good at this game you have to lose, and when you lose people rip on you AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE like you broke the code of conduct or something. I've tried so hard, but it goes to show time and time again, people rip on me even when I mute all chat, the game itself feels like it turns on me because I broke so many laws (bad cs bad map pressure bad KDA) and so forth.

Perhaps maybe it's because I'm just juggling way too much at once without learning stuff bit by bit. But I'm just so damn impatient and I rather not try to focus solely on one small trait of the game (such as cs or map awareness) only to lose the game cause I didn't do everything else (e.g. you had great cs but pay attention to the map, buy your items and stop having shitty mechanics you bastard).

Well, you've heard me speak out like this several times. Either I need to be told to die of cancer, or just not do anything anymore and just never be good at any competitive games. Time to just beat up nothing but CPU's that are programmed to always be beaten at some point, I guess. There's no pride in that.

This game has to be the sport that's reserved ONLY for SUCCESSFUL perfectionists, nuff said.