Trying your hardest in this game with very weighted failure in mind is outright upsetting.
Via a deleted post of mine from before, overall, via my constant struggles via several posts of mine, I've realized the moral of the story seems to be that trying to get good at this game through constant failures is just outright annoying, because the stuff surrounding the failures is something that is meant to rip on you as much as it's compelled to.
There's this supposedly huge level of responsibility you have to live up to, otherwise whenever you mess up just once, it's usually your teammates ripping on your shit as much as they can. Then the enemy team will join in.
It's funny how so many people say "you have to fail a few times to get good and even pros make mistakes", it doesn't help in that I know that I for myself am a VERY bad AND STUPID player. So if you've ever seen me and say to me "no offense, but you're bad", I already long knew that I'm very bad.
But yes, I have whined a lot indeed, and have been chat banned both on this account and on my new account NewYetOldName. I know very well that I'm far from those angelic players out there. I've been a bit smart on how I word my self-contempt and expectations of what my foes think of me, but failure in this kind of game is just one of the most frustrating things ever since it just has to impact everyone else around you, and create such horrible first impressions that takes YEARS to work on.
In my case, I've yet to learn shit like playing from behind whenever I feed my lane opponent via bad mechanics, trying to learn how to shake off fed
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and shit like that from my towers for free, playing ranged champions like a god, trying to master unlocked screen, learning certain matchups, all in the shortest time possible.
And from there, it just seems stupid that I need as much skills as around a gold-to-diamond player in order to do better than bronze, only to rise up to ONE rank. Even if I ignore everyone via muting all chat, the fact remains that it's easy for a fool like me to understand that the games have gone south all because I messed up mechanically with no knowledge to fix it. Otherwise, I wouldn't have to get ripped on. This overall just lowers my morale and causes me to get angry at people who tell me "just play the game" because I would argue with the fact that trying to make me do my job as mechanically perfect as possible is so far-fetched when I, a bronzie, screwed it up in the first place.
Almost like people forget that most pros also started out as bad as a dumbass like me. But hey, no one seems to care about that fact at all, cause they may be just as ignorant as I would be towards that to be unable to see it. And that seems to be the massive case with this game in general, and possibly from what I hear about reddit roasting almost ANYTHING bad about a League figurehead AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE (blame MagikarpUsedFly's vid about things he hates about League for that).