Returning player experience
I've recently played a few games after a hiatus of 1-2 years. I used to love this game, and I got the itch to play again so I logged in.
To preface this, i used to be diamond on my main account. I have had a couple accounts permabanned for responding to trolls and ragers in jerk fashion (in the real world I tend to be kind). I accept it. I acted like a trash human. didnt love how angry the game had made me or how it consumed me, so I quit after losing thousands in permanently banned accounts. That's in the past, though I didnt love RIOT spamming me with offers after essentially determining they didnt want me to support their game.
Anyways here I am about 2 years later. A lot has changed and my alt account is about gold 2. I did some very brief research and queued some games. Here are my experiences to share!
Game 1: load up, alt-tab to check builds. Everything black screens and wont load. Restart behind a level, everyone is going insane as I profusely apologize stating idk what happened. All lanes lose (not an unwinnable state) and freak out. The bot lane cho'gath support comes mid at around 8 minutes and starts farming/shoving. He never leaves.
Mind you, my kda was one of the better on the team at about 2 deaths early on as I remember. Not great but not awful and not feeding as I get acquainted. Game ended very, very early but the Cho never stopped trolling. I really have zero clue why he did so. I had to resist the urge to say anything but I wasnt too upset because it was my first game back and i had a bad start. I think I did try to explain myself and apologize and stated cho was farming my lane so i couldnt do much. Some may view that as being a jerk but i felt bad and was trying to be apologetic.
I looked up why I had a black screen before queuing and found other people experienced the same with a windows update and fixed it. No problemo, queue game 2.
Game 2: queued as rammus jungle. Everyone was chill and tried and didnt say much. Was fun. I did poorly but was getting back in the swing. We won.
Game 3: queued mid again. Got an okay start but was fizz and they had an irelia mid. I didnt know about the irelia update to start so she definitely whooped me. I tried hard not to feed.
Early on the duo jungle/mid were playing together, a team fight broke out in their jungle and I followed and got 2 early kills. I was scolded for taking the "master tier" duo's kills and I helped take the enemy blue. He had a fresh blue and ragged at me because I almost took his second blue, not knowing. I apologized and said np. I also didnt MEAN to take the kills.
I then died to a poppy/irelia turret drive because I suck and was laughed up and down and scolded some more. The jungle proceeded to tax my lane after I died and intentionally froze 3 waves before the mid turret that i couldnt get to and told me I deserved it and to sit back while he taxed and carried. I fell massively behind after this same scenario played out twice.
The duo continued to berate me. I muted them, tried to ping Mias and do my best and follow roams. I did very poorly. I know I suck. also was a jerk and laughed when the duo failed or died and said things like, "this is how you wanted it jungle." Unecessary for sure and I realize that, but honestly I was trying to win and started out overly polite even while being scolded and laughed at for awhile and, the worst part, actively sabotaged by my jungle because I was bad.
He also called me hard stuck gold trash to which i replied, "2 games is hard stuck?" Yikes. It's TRUE I'm bad right now but I am trying. And man people are mean, and I see the slippery slope I fell down before already presenting itself to me, demanding I walk down that path.
We lost eventually by a pretty significant amount. I know it was my fault but I never stopped trying.
Is this where the community is at now? I guess I'm just not THAT great of a person, but i want to be. I know you're not allowed to say anything, but on 2/3rds of these fresh games I got hardcore picked on and I didnt think I did THAT poorly. But man it is tough to not say anything after people rage once or twice and you stay polite which I can deal with, but when they sabotage you in the game with actions rather than words, trying to make you do poorly. Man THAT gets my blood boiling. I can really see how I got where I had before already.
Yikes. Fun game, really enjoy the GAME. But the people are SO mean, and I know I'm not allowed to respond to them. And it's almost painful wanting to try to help them.
Not a great experience.
Game 4: queued fizz mid, got my bearings a little more. Went 12/1. Was fun everyone was nice and did well. No drama.
2/4 games had people acting like absolute jerks and sabotaging gameplay selfishly, with 1/4 having a player bully the absolute crud out of me.
Before I get smited or w/e, I was no angel in that third game after I got picked on for awhile. I'm sure I said something like, "this is how you wanted it camille," and, "looks like the master tier duo didnt carry after all." And i think I typed LOL after one of them failed pretty hard. I'm sure that makes me scum to the community but at least I'm honest here.
Still seems very unfair. Going forward if I continue I guess I just need to mute all and not say a word, but man I really want to play a multiplayer game and have that human interaction and fun ya know?