My conclusion on why I don't win games.
Opening statement: So I have been thinking for the past months why exactly I lose games ofc my first thought was the normal "My teams fault i'm 24/5 but we still lose." but I don't think that is it at all after all my thinking my problem is humility.
Problem 1:
Say its laning phase I am in a good lane aka I have the advantage say there jg is someone like
or
and is not gonna be much of a threat till lvl 6 and my early game is stronger than the enemy say i'm
and they are a
lvl 6 they will tear me a new one so the smart thing to do is to get ahead before then well sure sounds easy enough just be aggressive and try for a post 6 kill / tons of farm denial however say this
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or even the bot lane goes into my lane for a bit at say lvl 2 and does some damage to me or the
goes really aggressive onto me and manages to out trade me (just as example I don't ever see that happening xD) well for some reason despite knowing I shouldn't I back off and start playing passively for the rest of the laning phase as I get scared it will happen again even if I know it won't... Ofc even if I do play passive and not feed the
will still head bot or top and get some kills despite my pings (Ya know how it is.) well that there costs me the game as the
is too fed to be stopped.
Problem 2: Or say I win laning phase hard 5/0 to 0/4 then I push and take first tower I never go for the second tower even if I see 4 people bot lane miles away from me cause for some reason i'm scared they will magically get back and kill me shutting me down and taking the lead... So I go and I group with my teammates and just sit in a stand still waiting for them to make plays (even though chances are they will never make em...) because I don't wanna not be there if they get in a teamfight and lose 4 v 4 then blame me (as they do.) even though I know for fact I could be doing so much more... Which ends up being a toss up to which randomly build team is better (I don't want that I want to win games not flip a coin and hope my luck is good...)
The biggest problem: But the worse thing of all is when I am not ahead but not behind and I am like 4/4 I DO NOTHING. I am so scared to fed that I do NOTHING until I pick up one more kill. This is my WORSE problem and makes me sooo bad at the game... I am scared to fed I am scared to have a bad game... I know its normal to have a bad game or two i'm not faker I can't shrek house every game (xD) but still... I still DO NOTHING. Which is why I think I need to learn humility I need to fed not int but fed some games I need to try my best even if we are losing and if I end up with a negative score I should proudly say to people who question it "I tried my hardest with the skill I have and the team I was given but in the end I couldn't win." NOT "My fucking bot lane went 0/22 in 20 minutes and the draven was completely unstoppable so I just hid in the corner like a lil bitch till the game ended."
The question: So the whole point of this post is to ask you guys the community what your thoughts are and if you have any tips and trick I could do to learn some humility / Improve my play or if you don't think humility is even my problem.
**Extra info: ** I am silver 5 have been for the last 50 ranked games (Not gonna be leaving it this season) I'd go to 80 lp back down to 16 lp or whatever. (So I pretty much belong.) As I said before I don't go negative in 95% of my games but I lose over 50%. I would prefer creative criticism or just nice replies no "Oh you are complete shit blah blah blah" kinda thing... Also I didn't know rather to go to General discussion for this , Gameplay or Help and Support I choose Gameplay because it has to do with my personal Gameplay experience and a question on how I could improve it. (But if I needa move it I will. Ofc) I tried to put this together the best and easiest way to understand / read but if I need to clarify anything let me know.