Why do we love to go ALL IN?
Just curious of those out there that love full HAM, going ALL IN, what your motivations, if you know them (or this post will get you critically thinking about deep stuff like this!), for this desirable behavior is?
I am not quite sure what mine is, it seems to be an amalgam of "living by the skin of your teeth and 1v5 pentakilling is insanely rewarding in neurotransmitters" but also confidence that I CAN do it because I have done it time and time again, innate lack of fear, no survival instinct, but I often STILL do it and generate no neurotransmitter reward, actually feeling disappointed in the enemy team they couldn't beat me (the "victory is boring" trope), sometimes it feels like I am just all in'ing to TEACH the other team or a certain player on the enemy team something about life or a lesson or trying to increase their personal skill and make them better at playing (aka a more challenging and fun opponent). Like I feel this stims from my bullying in my early years in order to get people tougher skin, more confidence in themselves and VITALITY and THIRST for the fight for the fight's sake (aka challenging your own mastery of self and skills), but also the previous reasons simultaneously. So over all I think I LOVE to do it because "It's fun and helps other people master themselves in tough situations/survival training." Or maybe it is: "Because I love to fight, for the sake of fighting, because fighting is fun when you HAM 24/7 and completely not fun when you are an alternative word for cat." or some such junk, really not sure and asking for the sake of discovering more about myself, and understanding other's motivations more.
So again: What are your motivations for ALL IN behavior, or why do you love doing it if you don't know the underlying traits behind it?
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