Some thoughts after going 0-3 in series playing really well...
So all 3 games went relatively the same, except a different problem lane/lanes in every game.
The first game was some experience: I pick twitch jungle cause I have a First time Liss top, and a TF mid. So we need the AD, I've had really good success on Twitch, should be fine. No joke this Liss just AFK farmed top while I tried to carry teamfights 4v5 after the most frustrating 15 minutes of my league career. The enemy jungler did nothing for like 12 minutes, actually nothing with a grand score of 0-1-1. It should be noted that this is a Yi into my Twitch. I end up helping my team get a few kills while powerfarming as per usual. End up starting with about a 75% KP with more farm than the Yi. But at the 12 minute mark we are down in towers, gold, kills, everything. How does this happen? Well my solo lanes just got walked all over. My top laner was losing lane despite the advantage i gave them, same with my mid laner, all without any jungle help. This one ends in a loss because we just fell far enough behind that we couldn't do anything, and the liss refused to actually join fights. Tried tho, did pretty well, most damage in the game.
The 2nd game is one of the more frustrating experiences a jungler can have. This Hec just walked all over my team while I tried to keep up with the monkey ass ganks he was pulling off against teammates that refuse to ward (please give me the ability to buy sightstone again). Whole game was like this, ended up with most damage in the game. Not enough to win though.
The 3rd game is actually the most frustrating time I have ever had in this game. This is the game that sums up why matchmaking needs to be changed in some way shape or form to make it more balanced. How does the opposing team have a Bronze 1 ADC who completely craps on my bot lane? Bot lane goes 2-24 combined score. 2 and god damn 24. Soraka just kinda afk'd after 20 minutes so down 4v5. Still winning fights cause AP shyv is busted with a lead, but not enough to push any advantage ever. I end up doing 15k less damage than my entire team combined in a 32 minute game, that is actually pathetic.
It is frustrating to try so hard and just have it not matter. Now you could look at these games and go "you just got outjungled", but that just isn't true. Teammates refuse to ward, I also pick scaling junglers because early game junglers just don't work against opponents cause get this: they ward. Want proof of this? My Diana in the last game placed 1 ward in 32 minutes. I don't know how much more I can do for my team... I am picking AP shyv because once you hit 6 you can gank almost constantly with insane burst damage that people just don't respect in silver. It works every game, but the problem is people just int any lead you give them. The last game I was flamed like all game for not ganking as much as the enemy jungler, my kill participation in every game is actually great. I don't know how much more I can do to win games, all 3 felt actually impossible, and felt like a massive uphill climb.
I'm not denying that I could have played better and given myself a better chance to win, I'm denying that playing better would have won me the series. Perhaps playing better might have won the 2nd game, but I'm still down 1-2 even in that situation. I dislike blaming teammates, but I feel like if I had slightly better teammates, probably would have went 3-0. And that is just sad.
