This game makes me happy that my teammates lose matches.

Don't get me wrong; I start off trying my hardest to win. Every time.

But when I get the absolute fucking cretins that are forcing me to lose matches, all I can do is say, "At least I can earn my lp back, once I find a game without you in it," solely to cope.

But after spending a whole fucking day trying to win one single game and getting retard after retard, I finally give up mid-match. I see one person after the next just inting outside of their turret, and I just think, "You know what? I'm not investing my emotion into this match. They deserve to lose lp." And then I just stop trying. I'm out. I'm done.

And then if I manage to make my team upset, then I feel better, because I at least know I'm not the only person on my team feeling like absolute shit because I've been forced to lose.

Because if I don't do that, I'll end up doing something much, much worse: telling them to stop feeding, which will get me chat restricted. And I don't want to deal with that shit.

If I try to win games, I just end up getting upset and disappointed, because I get inting morons who keep that from happening.