Need morale help....

Hey guys,

I need help staying positive and focused after the rito announcement today. Not only does it sound like riot is thinking of going no solo que option, but they won't even talk about it and so given that I've had a clinical diagnosis for depression since I was 16 or so it sets up this situation where I just want to ruminate on all the worst possibilities and my mind keeps telling me riot is gonna screw solo players.

Now I don't want to just complain about the game, or riot, or anything else really. What I want is to try and find a way to stay positive and engaged w/ League. See, as long as I'm still playing I'm probably gonna play ranked. I'm god awful right now bc I took 2 months off waiting for SQ to come out, but missed the game and started playing again. I've done some normals, but I don't focus and improve in them so I don't get much better till I go to ranked and buckle down. Currently, I'm spamming simple stuff to pick things up (Amumu, Xin, GP-which I may drop bc I don't think I understand it well, Malphite, probably need to throw in Poppy too). The point is I'm focused and trying to improve my top/jg play so that I can play well when SQ comes out. Now I start going around in my head about how it's not gonna happen and part of me just wants to play random stuff sometimes. The worst part is, I don't think I want to just play random stuff all the time. So I'd be jumping mid/support/whatever random top/jg champ I hadn't really been focusing on or thinking about and probably getting crushed. However, I wouldn't just drop so low that I started to do okay on random shit bc I still have favorite champs and will want to play them often enough it would probably keep me in a high enough MMR from winning on my favorites that I'd get crushed playing randoms.

I gotta get my brain to shut up and stay focused on getting better, but I'm not sure how to stay positive and excited about league instead of thinking that SQ is never gonna show up and it might be fun to play something I'm not as good at. Help!