Jungling help

Maybe it's because my name sounds flashy and pro, but as i am leveling up in blind pick, people always tell me to jungle. I am not very good at jungling because i don't know how to jungle.

I know to farm the jungle and set up ganks, but i feel like i am not very good at jungling.

For starters when people get ganked or die in lane, i feel guilty and self conscious like i failed at some deep level. I feel like i should have been there. Also when i try to gank i get frustrated that people don't push and be aggressive as well as focus target the target i am going after.

Lastly, when people are dying, i feel like i have to give them more "attention" by ganking their lane but it's hard to gank all the lanes. I know people choose 1 or 2 lanes (usually mid top, or mid bot, or top bot) and try to snowball them. But i feel like it's hard because it deters me from getting exp and gold.

I usually play top with teleport and pay attention to bot lane and bully my own lane as renekton, jax, or a free to play aggressive top laner. I love to play yorick and vladimir but they are more defensive and kind of less aggressive so i never play them except in co-op.

Another thing i find annoying about jungling is people say i need to help them. I do need to help people but i wish theyu would remember to ward. I think a ward could have prevented a gank or also gave us more knowledge of the enemy movement.

I have had a lot of bad jungle games, but when i play top or mid i do fairly well.

My last jungle game i tried fiddle sticks and maybe i suck at jungling or maybe the champion sucks, but i couldn't get anything done. I felt like i couldn't farm my jungle because all the lanes were collapsing and that makes me feel guilty and self conscious.

Any ways does anyone have any jungle tips they could give me (hopefully concise conscious tips like what is strong in jungle, what the mind frame is like, and what kind of experiences i should be expecting )

Thanks anyways.