You know, it's a shit feeling being in bronze...

...but it's worse when you feel like you can't escape. And if there was a ton of low-hanging fruit, maybe I could understand. But I don't understand how, if we can't pick our teams, we're expected to have a real shot. Bronze it's determined by the team with the least weak weakest-link. The Nasus with no stacks, the Ez he played against coming out of lane with 7 kills, an AFKer.

And after each game, I think "Why did you just blow 3 hours on this game? They don't care about you. No one in your life outside of this game cares - most of them are shocked you still play video games. And it's not helping your career or your education." Then I just go to bed, late, wake up overtired, and for some reason forget about it the next day.

I only keep playing because I drank the kool-aid thinking "Yeah maybe they're right, if I play well, I'll climb!" You won't. I'm so tired of the unprepared, the people who play champs for funsies in ranked, the ones with the builds that clearly illustrate they have no idea what they're doing. But more than that, I hate the culture that props up the system. The people a bracket higher who need the myth to stay alive, the judgment system that chooses potential RP purchases over game quality, the idea that you're not allowed to post other players names on the forums thereby providing them more cover.

I just hit honor level 4 and it isn't worth it. I would have been happier flaming. Becuase these players that show up to ranked aren't just having a bad game - they've never played that champ before, how would you even know what a bad game is on them - or are maybe learning. They're selfish. They want to do something, and they don't care whose time they waste. I've said before that Riot does not give anyone ANY incentive to play Normals. They've allowed a stigma to develop that "Normals are a waste of time" even while wasting everyone's time in Ranked with a "lol" after the 7th death at 16 minutes.

Your game is priced wrong. Punishments are too light, and being a decent person is way undervalued. It's occurring to me that getting banned from this game isn't the worst thing. If I can't play, I could actually invest in my life. And if I'm going to play, I may just as well tell the fucking lazy idiot, like the jungler who ganked so poorly tonight that my laner got a double kill and my ult only to turn around and say "sorry I was on the phone", exactly what they are. Selfish, lazy idiots.

There's no upshot to playing anymore. And it's so unbelievably sad.