I love league of legends but hate playing it...

i just had a game where i was shot down with harassment and hate from my team and my enemy team for breaking the meta with ad malzahar. what if i told you i love league of legends but hate playing the game. that one of the games i loved the most slowly turned into my bane and came so close to almost driving me insane. the game that could give me hours of enjoyment a day slowly faded to gray and occasion question why i even played. but i never stopped. Albert Einstein said that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting the results to change. see for a long time i believed that my actions in the community so large i couldn't begin to fathom wouldn't have a butterfly effect on the other players in my faction. we never saw it coming. from the moment we downloaded the launcher and typed in the summoner name we thought and had chosen little did we know that we opened up a world that would cause us to feel like we are going through the motions. none of us knew that when we started that very first match. and i know you all will remember it. i know you will remember this how that match would start something that sparked something that embedded inside of us that desire to win! victory was something we strived for and we logged on every night for. the game was beautiful, magic! and just so happened there wasn't any meta no team compilation that was better. because every player was innocent. and we didn't know the difference between who uses attack damage and AP. so daily we would see people failing because they tried playing swain ad. but we didn't care that we could ignore because we were too busy trying to get that infinity edge on Annie that we had been saving for. so as a result they'd feed and we'd feed but somehow eventually after what seemed like an eternity we had that one game where we got our first victory and it made it all worth it! all the frustration the lack of team communication from the times we lost our patience didn't matter because that one victory was the defining moment signaling that we had improved! and we savored every second of it. we'd come out on top somehow and nothing could stop us now the battle was won it was over. Done! we were so happy but through this hardship is where it started, even now i cant grasp it somewhere along the line we decided that scoring a win was more important than our teammates. playing this game went from a uphill struggle to improve to a downward spiral of abuse. at what stage did we decide we were any better like we made the same mistake or gone outside the meta. but instead of showing some patience, we became filled with hatred. now whenever i see a player raging at someone else i can feel my heart breaking. because i know that that person we have been labeling as toxic is someone we created. and i hate it! and recently i cant seem to get a single game where a team will treat each other decently. it eats at me knowing i log onto league to see people teasing and criticizing each other just become someone had a disagreement. i already have 5 enemies on the other side why should i have to deal with 4 more on mine! just because in that one baron fight i mistimed my smite. people talk about this community like they are not part of it. but we are and there's no masking it. if league of legends was the living thing we would be the heart of it. our heartbeat has stopped so right now im jump starting it. i love league of legends but i hate playing it. you want a reason to change take a pick. my reason is plain as this. i wanna get that feeling back. being in a match with complete strangers but feeling like im playing with people who are the exact same as me. so lets bring that back! i miss feeling that! you have to be the change you wish to see in the world. so change. please share this with your friends and fellow gamers i would like to fix the community :).